Holiday Season

I love this time of year....And at the same time it bothers me some. I love the time spent with my wife, my boys, my family. I love the music and the emotion that goes along with it all. I love the old movies, A Christmas Story is our all time favorite and as the boys get older they remind me of Ralphie and his little brother. I love the late nights wrapping presents and thinking this might be the last year Dominic really believes in Santa...Hoping to make it the most memorable.

with all that said as a parent I wish I could offer my family more, bigger trees, buying presents with a little larger spending limit and even new decorations for around the house. It is a time we all spend to enjoy the gift of giving and at times I wish the gifts were a little brighter, have a little more shine, were softer or louder, faster........With just a little more "wow" factor.

I know that it shouldn't matter but it does, it does because for some reason I judge a part of my success of being a husband, father, a family man on some of those ground...I mean how can you not.

So every year about this time I am trying to figure out how to do it all and I get a little bit of a pit in my stomach because I know that I am going to have to be the bad guy at times by saying "no we can't afford that" or "no that is just a little more expensive that what we should spend" or "no we can't be part of this exchange or that".

So in the mean time I do a little dance and enjoy the season but until I can catch up on what I forced my family to sacrifice over the last couple of years with school and staying home this time of year will have a little bit of tarish to it.

Funny thing is that it only seems to matter to me, my wife loves me, my kids love me, my family loves me despite of the situation....And that more than anything else makes this still my favorite time of year.

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